For many people, it seems to be "exciting," or "challenging," or "rewarding" or something along those lines... but for me, it has never felt anything but disruptive and turbulent.
Over the years, I have become increasingly aware that I depend on my "Islands of Reliability" — that is, being able to count on many things in my life to always remain the same — as cornerstones of being somewhat functional.
Of course, I'm also open to the possibility that this tendency has more to do with being an HSP (Highly Sensitive Person) than it has to do with ADHD. There are certain ways in which this particular neurological trait doesn't "play well" with ADHD.
Explained a little differently, a tendency to flit around and look at many different things directly UPSETS the sensitive part of me that would rather have everything be the same, all the time.
But getting back to the main event, here...
For example, I really like to know that in the morning, I will get up and
Give the cat his morning snack.
Give the dog her morning snack.
Feed the fish.
Clean the cat box.
Unlock the front door.
Put away the clean dishes from last night.
Pour my first cup of coffee.
Turn on the lights in my office.
Take the dog out.
Empty the tray in the dehumidifyer.
Sit down and check my email.
In that order... and I often feel greatly thrown off for the entire day if somehow I am expected to have a different morning routine.
That's just a small example... I like to be able to rely on these things, as part of maintaining my sanity!
I'm not sure exactly what that means, but I needed to put it in writing. Maybe it doesn't actually mean anything, and this is just a "bookmark" I will return to, as part of a later insight.
